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I Have A Confession



I have a confession.  I am human.  At first, I thought I was a hypocrite.  That is a strong word, but, when it comes to talking to myself, maybe, somewhat, I am.
 
My boyfriend and I have an agreement.  For every 10 pounds that I lose, he will order me a new band for my Apple Watch (because I'm a colorful person and want one of each color.)  I got on the scale earlier this week, and I proclaimed to him that he should go ahead and order one, because I was going to hit 30 pounds at weigh-in on Saturday.  Not only was that a significant 10 pound loss, but 30 pounds would mean that I was halfway to goal.
 
Well, it's Saturday.  It's weigh-in day.  I got on the scale first thing this morning, and I was doubtful that I would hit the goal.  Tears welled up in my eyes.  The disappointment was there.  Well, the disappointment got worse.  I got to weigh-in.  I needed the scale to say 160.4 or below.  I looked and the scale had 160.4, and quickly jumped to 160.6.  I had missed my 30 pounds and "halfway to goal" by a mere .2 ounces.  I was soooooo close.  I was angry.  I was upset.  I held it together through the meeting, but when I got to my car, I sat in the parking lot and cried, and cried, and cried.  (I think I would have been less disappointed with a being a half of a pound, or more away from hitting that mark, than I was from being so close.)  I had told myself I would hit the goal, and I believed it.  I had told my boyfriend, and he believed it.  As I sat there and cried, I was posting on Facebook, and texting friends. 

Also, for the first time since I began this journey, I wanted to eat my feelings.  I wanted to go pig out!  I wanted to eat all of the things that I had given up, until I reached goal.  I didn't do that.  I did make the decision to go home, and make healthy choices.  I'm so glad that I did listen to myself, in that regard!

Someone brought it to my attention, that, if this had happened to someone else, I would have turned it into something positive.  I would have told them that a loss, is a loss, and that they should be proud of all of the hard work that they had put in, and all that they had accomplished.  I would have told them to keep their head up, because next week would be the week it happened for them, and that it would be a big celebration. 
 
How true that is.  I am so thankful to the person that brought this to my attention. I am positive for everyone else.  I cheer for everyone.  I try to make everyone feel good about themselves.  Well, now, I'm not only angry about not hitting the goal, but I am angry that I got so upset ,and that I cried.  I know better than to talk to myself this way.  I know how detrimental negative self-talk can be.  I know that I should celebrate the loss, and be proud of myself for coming as far as I have.  I should be proud of all of the hard work that I have put in, to get to this point.
 
I hope that others don't think that I take their situations lightly, when they suffer disappointments, because I don't.  I know that they are upset, and my true intent is to always lift others up.  I don't want anyone to be down, but I definitely realize, especially after today, how a disappointment can be devastating, and that I will never take anyone's feelings for granted.
 
Thank you to those who posted positive replies to my posts, and who texted me only positive, and encouraging words.  I truly hope that I don't come across as hypocritical.  I only hope that everyone can see, that I am only human.  I get down, too.  I am hard on myself, and disappointments sit hard with me, especially if I feel that I have failed, or let myself down.
 
I hope that this message reaches others who are suffering from disappointments.  I want them to see that they are not alone, especially if they are feeling the way that I am feeling today.  I want everyone to know, and feel, that they, too, are only human!


Always remember – YOU ARE AWESOME!  Go out and make it a great day!
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  1. UnknownMay 20, 2018 at 1:35 PM

    Great post Lisa!!! Sometimes it's good to actually see that others are "human." You'll get there doll. You know you will too.
    As Scarlet said, "Tomorrow is another day." 😉

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    1. Lisa CochranMay 20, 2018 at 4:07 PM

      Thank you, so much. I'm so glad you enjoyed reading this. I'm in a better frame of mind now, and know that I will hit this goal at my next weigh-in. If not, well, I think I will be more than a little upset! LOL. Again, I appreciate you reading, and hope you will check out other posts, in the future!

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