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I Feel Guilty



I have figured out that I have succeeded on my weight loss journey thus far, because of guilt.  Yes, there has been discipline, and very strong focus, but guilt has been a major factor in my success.  A lot of people I know, including myself, were raised with guilt hanging over our heads.  If we did something "bad", we were told to go to confession.  (I'm not criticizing my religion, or any religion with that comment.  This is just what we were told.)  If someone corrected us, they always asked if we felt "bad" for what we said or did.  If we didn't feel bad enough, we were made to feel bad enough!  Basically, I have experienced enough guilt in my life, that it comes naturally to me.
Maybe I'm an overall good person because of guilt.  I can't be mean to anyone.  I don't try to get revenge for those who have done something to hurt me.  I'm not saying that thoughts never cross my mind, but I just do not like to feel guilty.  Guilt sits on my shoulders like an extremely heavy weight, that I know that I can only carry so far, before I have to throw it down.  I have made many of my life choices out of guilt, because I know how I will feel if I possibly make the wrong choice.
Not only is that the story of my life, but that's the story of my Weight Watchers journey.  I stay on plan, and that is my intention, but I NEVER have things I really want, because I know I will feel guilty, and beat myself up, especially if I don't lose weight at Weigh-In!  The thing is, I haven't learned to incorporate these food choices into my life.  That was a deliberate choice on my part.  I didn't want to learn how to do that, until now.  Unfortunately, I waited so long to want to learn this, that I am feeling deprived.  I am missing all of the things that I love, that I refused to let myself have.  I was, and still am, afraid of trigger foods - but I do feel that I will keep myself in check, because of the fact that I hate feeling guilty!
I've gone 4 1/2 months with only one piece of candy - which I had the points for, and still felt bad for eating.  I now feel deprived, and am having cravings, and if I do not learn to make this a lifestyle, I know that I will not continue to succeed.  I follow the rules, and the plan is working.  I just know that I cannot go on forever, and never have a "real" dessert, or candy, or some of my other favorite foods, and desserts that I am missing.  I am  not willing to give up certain foods forever.  I don't have to have them all of the time.  I just have to learn to incorporate them back into my lifestyle - and not to harbor so much guilt when I do choose to have one of these foods that I have been denying myself.
Is guilt a part of your journey, or is it just me?  I'm curious for your comments.


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  1. UnknownMay 22, 2018 at 10:55 AM

    Great post Lisa!!! Thanks for sharing sweet friend!!!

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  2. Lisa CochranMay 22, 2018 at 12:36 PM

    Thank you for reading, and thank you for your support!

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