Lisa's Point Of View

A wise person I know has told me on more than one occasion to think back at how my life was one year ago compared to how it is today.  That's a very scary thought.   One year ago today, I was approximately two weeks away from totally hitting rock bottom.  I had tried to convince myself that things were good, but I knew they were not.  I had been through a divorce, which, although it wasn't ugly, there was still a great deal of pain from a 20 year marriage coming to an end.  I know now that not all of the problems of my marriage were my fault, but I was still at a point that I blamed myself and could not forgive myself.  It's funny.  It seems like forgiving yourself would be easy to do - just say the words to yourself, and it's done.  Wrong!  It didn't work like that.   I thought I was moving on.  I was dating a guy that for some strange reason, I thought was God's gift to the world.  At first it was too good to be true, and that should have been my clue